back to school

So here's the reality: I'm in Form 6 officially. Had my first week of school and I do have a few things to say about it...

Back to school. I’m so used to the ‘back to school’ season every year after Christmas.Usually when school starts, theres a sense of excitement within me.

A sense of excitement of going for back-to-school shopping for bags or stationaries, books and (I’m a last minute gal) nail polish removers... (LOL), of feeling like making a resolution of completing my homeworks no matter what (and eventually failing to do so, LOL!), of meeting my friends and catching up with stories of our hols [I would think about the things I would share with my friends—and things I wouldn’t..], of seeing our teachers(and maybe dreading some~), I know who I’m gonna meet and I know where my class is gonna be. I know where the labs are and I basically know my way  around the school., I know who my teachers are. I have some things to look forward to and I know for real that I wouldn’t feel awkward. Those are the ‘exciting’ things.and well, since its not fair for everything to be positive, I have a sense of dread to wake up early every morning, rush through my morning  and I wonder why we don’t have the schools start later like at 8 am or something. I would appreciate that extra hour of sleep>< Anyways, other than having my beauty sleep disturbed, I dread having to have to complete my homeworks on time, and also the exams...(who wouldn't, I mean like I'm a completely normal teenager to be complaining about these things -_^)

But now its different. School life was supposed to be over last year. 2010 marked the end of my school life, the starting point of my 'freedom' from rules and stuff of the sort. Or at least that's what I thought. My dad had other plans for me, and (I seriously can't believe that I'm saying this) I'm glad to be given a second at shot at it. Coz in this one week I realized that this is a head start for me for college life.. I'll be studying in school, yeah, and I'll be wearing uniform, and I'm still tied to the school rules...yeah but its an opportunity I won't regret getting because STPM is HARD and what else is gonna make me feel comfortable other than being to be at school to get through it? I've been in school since I was 7 and I am used to the 'school environment'.. I can go into the exam hall and not feel stressed in my uniform, coz I've been there, done that...not literally though=) And the best part is that I'll be in class filled with people whom I've known since primary school.. And (thanks to my dad) I've studied in 7 different schools all my life and in my current one--the 8th one, I feel like I know most of em. I also have my primary school crush as my classmate(but he's a Malay~): 

I will count this as another blessing in my life and I promise to give it my best shot, coz after this, theres no turning back... I'm gonna need all the support I can get from my peeps in T.I and from JS.. I'm gonna need God by my side in every step I take, and for that I have to reconstruct my relationship with Him. I will also prove to my dad that no matter what I am capable of achieving my dreams..=D